I feel like crap!

I had a bad moment today and I feel like crap about it. It is just bothering me and I have to get this off my chest. Ok, we went out to eat at this place (which will remain nameless) and we got on the list. And for it being a Sunday, beating the church crowd is a must. The wait wasn't too bad...10-15 minutes which again, I thought was pretty good luck, considering! Anyways, I'm rambling....back to my story. The chick at the calling place calls my name, so I round up the troops and head to the front. This is where I lost my cool...I go up there and say my name, and the chick says to me (and I quote!) We are going in order, so we'll get to you in a minute. She was polite about it, so I said ok. Then she called the people after me AND I know they were after my name because I saw that on the list, I was the last name on that page! AND THEY WENT TO THE FRONT AND GOT SEATED BEFORE US!!! AFTER she said that they were going in order! I'm normally not a "bee-atch" but, this pissed me off. SO, I got to the front, and said (and I quote) SO WHEN IS IT OUR TURN TO BE SEATED? (and yes, I said it with attitude)
I got upset and I feel horrible, especially since I did it in front of my troops! AND did I apologize, NO, I am still justifying my behavior! I feel like crap because my kids were in with me, but I still think that the chick should have realized what she had done...she said one thing and did another. OH, and not just that, when they took us (finally) to our table, it was dirty and they did not have enough chairs...it was just a bad experience for the two of us...them and me. So I forgive you restaurant that will remain nameless. Hopefully next time we can be in sync.

mucho más otro tiempo

Hungry!

Ok, so we started this health competition at work and it seems to be a hit! I am not sure how many of the teachers and staff are participating, but it's so great that everyone is motivated to be healthier. I have started strong, and I hope that I can continue. For those who don't know me, I am driven by sweets and considering that you get points for not eating it, I have been strong!!! But, I have to admit, I am dying! I have had a Hershey's Cookies and Cream bar in my purse and a big bag of Sour Patch Kids (both are my favorites) and I have had to give the Candy bar to the hubs! (it's a mystery about the SPK!) I haven't eaten them yet, but man, do I want to.

Change subjects! I'm getting tempted to go and gobble down the bag. My hair is growing fast. I went for a hair trim a couple of weeks ago and it already seems like I need another. I'm going to wait though.

Well, I better go and earn more points...time to work out!!!

Más otro día.

It's been forever

Oh my! Has it really been this long since I have last blogged? Well, a few things have happened since then...I had another surgery during Christmas break. It went well and I was in and out...outpatient. I just have (hopefully) one more coming up in a couple of months. I have 2 more months of treatments and I will be 100% done with all medication. YEAH!! I am so excited. Then it's one more Edible Creations delivered TO ME, FROM ME....WAY TO GO ME!!! Yes, I am this self-centered. I've been to hell and back in a year, so I think I deserve this!

Speaking of hell, I think that's exactly where I am headed after yesterday! I may have a bench right on top of a bonfire! I am taking classes for baptism...I have all but one of my nephews, so we had to go back to the classes! Anyways, yesterday was the National Championship and class started at the same time. Well, the hubs and I are also baptizing my cousin's little boy so it's basically killing 2 birds with one stone...anyway, I texted my cousin for information and then when the class started, I couldn't stop texting! I asked about the score and who had the ball all the while the wonderful teacher was asking us questions! Now here's the thing...my brother, sister-in-law and the hubs stayed quiet and waited on me to answer the questions...so I got busted a few times! I know my stuff though! At least she got to know the score too! Let's just say class ended early and we are more than half way done with the class! So instead of 2 more, we just have 1 more...the hubs said that I have to leave the phone at home next week!

Over all, it's been a great start to a new year...even though it is hard to get back into the groove of work again! But, 5 more months and SUMMERTIME is here. Good thing is...Baseball season is about to start!

Well, more later.

Mucho amor~~~
me

One year survivor!!!

The road to recovery is definitely not paved with rose petals and blossums...but I've been told by other Proud Survivors and personally discovered... the struggle to get through it is worth it. And I have to admit, that at the beginning of this "unwelcomed" journey, I couldn't see much of the other side. I was worried and scared, but I tried for the life of me not to show it. I can't tell you how many days I was crying inside and thought I would go out of my mind, even though not many people know this. My own husband had no idea most days.



I found healing in positive thinking and in the Grace of God. I have always been a believer, but I think that foundation is totally unbreakable after this past year.



What I think is funny is how people I know react to me now versus to how they did back then. When I was going through chemo, I saw the pity that people had in their eyes and the "Oh my gosh, you are so young" comments...well, I have had the same pity in my eyes before too, and let me tell you...please don't. These are probably the strongest women I will ever know...spiritually and personally. I hope someday to fit in the same category as them, because they are truly my heroes. I don't think I could have made it without hearing the success stories that they shared around the Chemo lounge. These women truly helped calm my fears.



A friend of mine asked me the other day if I could re-do my life, if I would leave this part out...NO WAY!!! God had a plan, and I am on a mission to find out the rest of it! To all of the survivors out there...YOU WOMEN ROCK!

Is history repeating itself?

Well, I haven't really listened to the news a whole lot until the President came on last night and talked about the stock market and the whole ordeal with that. And it made me wonder: Are we headed into another Great Depression? The reason why it is down sounds a lot like why it crashed towards the end of the 1920s. Banks loaned out too much money to people who really and truly had no intentions of paying the loan back and when one person does this, it's bad enough; but when more people are doing it, the situation turns ugly.
It's not the American people's fault, no, it's the banks trying to get greedy and issue out more than what they should have. It's hard to believe that they have "financial advisors" and this happened and I come to the conclusion that obviously these so-called advisors don't know how to advise properly. I pray that the situation turns for the better and that the banks learn from their mistakes...
...who knows, maybe they should have paid more attention in History class when the crash of the Stock Market was taught and this whole thing could have been avoided!

Just in a bad mood!

I know everyone has had one of these days! I'm just in a pissy mood! I really can't tell you why, all I know is that everything is bothering me...so I have distanced myself from the ones that I love in order not to get short with them. Except Michael, the dude won't leave me alone; it's almost like he wants me to be mean to him. I've told him to leave me alone and yet, el hombre won't go away! No, he goes and pokes my ear, then he stands in front of my tv and asks me, "what are you watching?" Well nothing with your fat head in the way!!! AAAARRRRGGG! Please tell me I'm not a bad person for feeling this way, it's just one of those days! I'm praying that it's gone by tomorrow...it might be that I didn't get my caffiene in today!

no hay mucho amor hoy

What's mine is theirs, what's their's is their's!!!

My two babies...drinking MY M&M shake!

We went to Fuddrucker's for dinner the other night and for the most part, I love eating burgers with a shake. My kids make a mess with anything and everything, so I get the shake and I let them take turns in drinking some.

WELL, let me tell you something, it became the other way around. Whenever I wanted a drink, they both looked at me like I was "thiefing" my own shake. AND... it actually turns out that this time, I made the mess...I was trying to refill my glass and the entire shake from the other container just flew into my glass spilling onto the table. Leah just looked at me and very "quietly" said" UUMMMM, MAMA, YOU MAY MESH!, TEEN UP, MAMA, TEEN UP!"

Oh, yeah, she knows about clean up when it's some one else's mess, but when it's hers, it's like it doesn't even exist! Silly girl. My kids are just like their mama, we likes the sweet! Obviously!

Mucho amor